No Losing Time
For the past few years I’ve felt like I’m in a race against time. A race to pursue what I think to be my dreams of relavency in this space.
At the end of the day, I just want to create things that I think people will enjoy, but my procrastination coupled with a need for perfection in what I make is a very dangerous combination that keeps me stagnant.
I still don’t really know how to navigate that middle ground. Ideas come and go. I work on some then get lost in something else. Perhaps its undiagnosed ADD, maybe its the depression, or perhaps its both.
I want to be acknowledged. I want people to read something I’ve done and say “You know what? That’s pretty good. What’s next?”, but I’m slowly starting to realize that that is not an instant process. It takes time, consistency, and most importantly hard work.
Coming of age in an era of instant gratification (i.e. Social media) added to my impatience and anxiety. I feel that I HAVE to be out there. I HAVE to always have content out in the world or Ill fade into the background.
But, it doesn’t have to be like that. There is no limit on good content. There is no specific timeframe in which something needs to be put out. That’s a benefit of the digital age. Once you put it out there, its there forever. It can be endlessly consumed whether you wrote it in five minutes or five days. There is no “winning” in this game. It doesn’t end.
There is no rush. There is no race against time. The only race is against myself and who I was the time before. There is still time.
Time to go and get after it.