2025 has started, but I want to look back on 2024.
If 2023 was a year of great change for me, then 2024 was me exploring just what that change meant for me going forward.
In the first half of the year I felt motivated, still coming off of the momentum I had to build at the end of 2023, but over time I felt myself slowly falling back into old habits. The routines I had started to build crumbled, and the pieces of me that began to heal were starting to ache again.
The bad habits I had spent so long engaging in started pulling me back, by the end of the year I wasn’t back to where I started, but I felt further from where I was.
Though it wasn’t all bad. 2024 showed me things I would have never seen otherwise without that built up motivation. I went places, reconnected with friends, lost family, lost love, and experienced things that I never thought I would.
2023 opened a new chapter in my life, 2024 was me familiarizing myself with these new boundaries. Sights, sounds, and feelings that I buried came to the surface and I started to let myself feel actual true emotion. I’m still not where I want to be, but I’m making progress in a real way and that is enough.
My creativity felt stifled and I stopped doing the things I liked to do, my focus was elsewhere from the things that made me happy. I vowed to update this page, and that fell through.
I haven’t written anything in a couple of years because my need for perfection kept holding me back. All the ideas in my head have no outlet because I held myself back. I focused so much in certain areas, that others started to suffer. I felt content, but I wasn’t fully happy outside of certain moments.
I stopped working on my book, I didn’t read as much as I wanted, and my other interests started falling to the wayside as more and more problems seemed to pile onto me.
It might sound like I’m saying that 2024 was a bad year, but on the contrary it was good. Like I said I reconnected with some of my closest friends, and by the end of the year I even managed to get myself a girlfriend. I went from falling on my face in love, to now having a chance to build something from the ground up.
2025 I want to start dipping back into my interests, while also balancing my health and happiness. To focus on myself in a real way, become a person dedicated to bettering myself at all times. To have faith in the powers above me, but also have faith in myself.
I learned a lot in 2024, but 2025 I want to start utilizing those lessons. Here is to another new beginning.